Hi (:

I just thought id post since i havent in a while...
I should be asleep, but.... ya thats not happening..

I started college, i go to a junior college in levelland.
Im not sure what i want to be yet, but radiology is still an option.
College is hard. Real hard. and honestly, i hate it.
Maybe its because i dont live on campus and dont get to experience the full college thing..
Maybe its because its school, and ive never been a real big fan lol.
Im taking 3 classes, was taking 4 but i had to drop one.
Im doing pretty good, if only i could get motivated to actually do my homework instead of cramming it in last minute.

I live with my best friend Ashleigh.
We got an apartment in Lubbock and we absolutely love it!
I feel like once again im growing up way faster then i need to be, i thought i would get in the dorms and not have to worry about so many bills...but things change.

We both work at Orlandos Restaurant, its an Italian food place, a pretty good one in fact.
We are both phone girls, we take delivery orders and pick up orders.
Pays not the best, but as we move up it will increase.

I hate change, i dont think i will ever grow out of that...
From graduation, to a horrible summer.... and now im out on my own, trying to make my own place in this scary scary world... i often doubt myself and my abilities...
Can i really do this? Is college right for me? These questions run through my head quite often...
No, i do not wanna drop out of college... I do want to make something of myself one day... I just dont see how i can do it if im struggling so much right now..

I wish i had time to go to this church i found here, its really awesome!
It reminds me of New Hope in Manvel...
Its called Experience Life, and i have been once and fell in love with it..
But sadly i work during most the service times, and if im not working ill be in O'Donnell visiting my dad.

I really hope life starts looking up soon. I dwell to much on the past, especially the past events that have occured this year... I really wish i could be one of those people who wake up one morning and are completely fine, who know the past is in the past and junk. One day i will move on, i just hate that im finding myself "dwelling" at this hardcore stressful time right now.

Hope everyones good.
Prayers?...Please?...They'd be greatly appreciated...
Love yall..(: